idk

[yesungs]

 i'm just empty
idk what to say or do
i don't wanna do or say anything
but at the same time i do
i feel like there's no hope for me
i'm smart and get good grades and ideas and morals
but what does it matter if i can't really make it out there as a person
the practicalities and just strength
idk

yesung is leaving tomorrow
idk how i'll act at tatiana's house 
will i be sad or happy
will i make her get annoyed with my sadness
i'll be happy maybe and then it'll come crawling down on me
there's not many things that give me happiness
true happiness
and what does right now is leaving me for 2 years
i wish i had more time